I was really desperate and lonely, really about to die but
not the physical death.
All I wanted and dying to have was just a supporting hand, a
little smile, few soft words, presence of the love around me and there should
be someone who can feel what I can’t utter.
My mouth was dry like sand of desert, till now I am unaware
what happened to me? Who did this? It was me or the shadows I loved, was used
to of them?
I usually laugh at my ignorance that the shadows are with us
just in bright light not in pitch black, mostly my laughter used to turn into
cries and mourns and the life was going on without a single happy day. I used
to pretend that I can smile, I can enjoy, and I can live alone. I could not
have any thing, anyone.
I drowned even there was not a chance of it. I am still
astonished, how everyone let me go, let me drown.
I saw whole my life, also seeing now. People do promise of
love, loyalty, devotion and being together forever. Most of them are friends,
lovers’ even blood relations.
All these promises become ashes and like particles of the
sand; fade away
I should not have to be like a plucked flower, once
withered, thrown away.
World is enriched with love, care, trust, the relation of
friendship, devotion but I was unable to; I must say I was very unfortunate to
get them all. I was spoiled, ruined like the shapes made with sand that are
treated by the people on the shores.
I assumed I will be the same like I am; I was. World will be
the same like it was. Only the thing which grows is just loneliness. I don't
really know the scarcity of the people and the things that I loved, I wished, I
needed a lot will it always remain in my whole life?
I just know The God is with me and will always be with me.
Running behind the necessities of life made me blind, it took me so long but I
am awake now, the only thing I know that God is enough for me!
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